Recently I had a mommy moment, what's that? Well, when something happens that makes your heart squeeze and you have to say...wow...this is my life. Last Friday night was one of those for me. Poor Jackson, like his father before him, suffers from nightmares. I mean he wakes up all the time with them and sometimes he even has problems going to sleep. On this particular night, he tells "sissy" that he is scared. Well to the rescue she comes, I go up when I hear them talking only to discover she is in the bed with him. Long story short...this is how they ended up! You gotta love Big Sisters!
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I've learned something about Elle-Catherine that I was happily surprised to discover. Last year she asked me to play soccer; well, when the time came to sign up she still wanted to play. We explained that no matter what, if she loved it or hated it she HAD to finish the season. As it turns out she doesn't really like it too much. In fact, she says that she will not play again next year (although, I hope that changes.) BUT...and this is the good part. She hasn't not once complained about not wanting to play or go to practice. Each time she puts on her gear and goes but never has even asked to quit. I proud that she knew that quiting was not an option!! I'm so proud of her. She isn't the best or most aggressive player on the team but she tries. Each game she becomes more sure of herself and I'm proud of those accomplishments because they don't come easy to her.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I'm up tonight a little bit later than normal because I have a decision that's weighing heavy on my mind. I'm very glad that God is a patient God because I feel like He has had to be with me lately. I feel like I know what I should do, and I'm afraid that the reason for this scared feeling in the pit of my stomach is not because I don't know what to do, but that I'm scared to do it. I've come face to face with the fact that perhaps I'm not as "spiritually mature" as I once thought. Maybe within me is a greater fear of man than I'd like to admit. I had thought I had worked this out within myself but this step that God is calling us to make is trying that belief. Then comes today...something happened that very subtly but effectively caught my attention. I have no doubt that God did this to me and for me on purpose. I am thankful for that, but I'm still scared. Why? I thought I had left behind the girl I used to be, to embrace the woman I've become and it hurts a little bit to realize that parts of the girl still exist.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Elle-Catherine woke up Friday morning with a weird rash that was a result of some crazy virus she had had. In her class, they had been reading "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory", since they had finished it their treat was a Chocolate Party. My little girl was sad that she was missing her party. Well, I was having none of that...here is our version of "Charlie's Chocolate Party"!
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Well it's not all it's cracked up to be, that's for sure. Terry is away doing a fishing tournament and we are here at home. In theory, I'm a strong woman I can handle most things, or so I would think. However, I've learned this isn't really the case. I wonder why I let the just daily stresses of life get to me more when I'm alone? I don't know why...well, yesterday was a little bit more than ordinary. Something was up with the battery in my car, and I was left, or so I thought, without any transportation and two kids to pick up and a prospective "alone" trip canceled. I'm sad to say I didn't handle it well, actually, I was pretty bad for the entire day. As God always takes care of us, my Dad and the guy across the street, Stinger (a story all his own!), fixed my car, and I did pick up the kids and even went on my "alone" trip. Still, I was pretty much not in a good place yesterday. I'm glad that Terry has Fisher's of Men, mostly, but sometimes it's a struggle. I guess I could look at it as a ministry that Satan will try to undue!